Im at home again. I barely have a week before going back to office. Rico, an old college kabarkada was here this afternoon. he had to give my cousin some cds so he went here. we talked for a while about some work stuff and then talked about how to fix my cousin's pc. I also spoke with ate jing and ronald about the project were trying to finish. Ill be seeing them on friday because i dont want to work on sunday. HH will be in manila by then and i have to spend some quality time with him.
So far im still enjoying my new phone. ive been textin a lot the past few days. i wouldnt wonder if i could finish my load in few days time.
Spending all of my time at home is really boring. i dont want to say that i miss working hard with tough schedule because im really sure i wouldnt want my old work load and schedule. i just hope ill be preoccupied with some stuff in the next few days. just the same i dont want to be so exhausted with work. i wonder if i can go some place before i go back to office next week. perhaps go to the beach or go swimming at HH's condo. that would be a nice idea.
The rest of my family went to a family friend's house in paranaque. I am staying here at home because i had to finish some work stuff.
Happy birthday Mait!
Tuesday, December 30, 2003
Monday, December 29, 2003
Christmas Season
I bought a fone yesterday with HH. Finally ive bought something for myself. My fone does not automatically turn off anymore. Yipee!
HH is in bicol right now. Im so bored here at home though i still have a lot of work to finish. I dont think i would want to spoil my vacation by having to work again during my few remaining days of VL. I just watched tv the whole day and tried tinkering my phone. I also played WC3 so i wouldnt lose my touch in playing the game. when i get back to the office next year, im pretty sure my opponents have practiced during this long vacation. Ill be giving them a pretty tough fight next year. hehehe
HH is in bicol right now. Im so bored here at home though i still have a lot of work to finish. I dont think i would want to spoil my vacation by having to work again during my few remaining days of VL. I just watched tv the whole day and tried tinkering my phone. I also played WC3 so i wouldnt lose my touch in playing the game. when i get back to the office next year, im pretty sure my opponents have practiced during this long vacation. Ill be giving them a pretty tough fight next year. hehehe
Tuesday, December 23, 2003
Vacation Starts
ive been on vacation since yesterday. good thing i applied for vacation leave because i still have so much VL balance to be carried over for next year.
since yesterday, ive been busy finishing another freelance job.hehehe talk about productive way of spending a vacation leave! i got this project last week. my old client contacted me and asked if i was interested in making an outsource project. just a pretty small one though. i was supposed to start doing this project last weekend but something really important came up that's why im here now working again. anyways, ill send the files to my client tomorrow morning. i hope he would appreciate my work and i really hope he doesnt find any more bugs.
last saturday, we had our office christmas party. it was held at the roofdeck of the CEO suites in jupiter street, makati. it was a hollywood star costume party. since i didnt want to spend too much in my costume, i just went to HH's salon to have my hair done and i wore a pretty much casual costume. i also didnt want to be the object of attention during the party. and to top it all, i really want to join the party games so dressing up too much might mean not joining at all. and so i went to the salon and HH's junior stylist fixed my hair. i love my hair that night. i really do! wish i did not forget to ask HH to take my pictures. anyways, while at the salon, one of my officemates also arrived there. it was a big surprise to know that she was a regular costumer there. small world huh?! she also had her hair fixed and had make-up. she was supposed to portray audrey hepburn... but she didnt look much like it since she's so chinita. so we went together to the party after gotten picked up by a fellow officemate. HH picked me up around 11pm and we went home after dropping some officemates at the office.
sunday noon i received a text message from one of my close friends. her aunt just died. i called her immediately and asked where her aunt's remains lay. when HH arrived at my house, i asked him to accompany me to the funeral house. Condolence to the family of the late tita cion. while at the funeral house, HH suddenly pulled my hand and asked if we can already leave. his eyes were turning red with tears. his hand was shaking as if he was so scared. i pulled my friend along with us and got out of the funeral house. while at the car, HH told us what he saw. he saw tita cion sitting next to my friend staring at us. He also said that tita cion was so sad and HH felt her sadness so much that's why he was about to cry awhile go. i felt goosebumps on my skin and the hair at the back of my neck standing. it was a scary thought that a dead person is just right beside you.
too much has happened the last few days. christmas is fast approaching. i still have so much to do. i dont want to spend my VL again without taking a good rest. ive finished watching season 2 of CSI. im starting to watch the CSI season1 dvds.
wish HH will have time to visit me. =(
since yesterday, ive been busy finishing another freelance job.hehehe talk about productive way of spending a vacation leave! i got this project last week. my old client contacted me and asked if i was interested in making an outsource project. just a pretty small one though. i was supposed to start doing this project last weekend but something really important came up that's why im here now working again. anyways, ill send the files to my client tomorrow morning. i hope he would appreciate my work and i really hope he doesnt find any more bugs.
last saturday, we had our office christmas party. it was held at the roofdeck of the CEO suites in jupiter street, makati. it was a hollywood star costume party. since i didnt want to spend too much in my costume, i just went to HH's salon to have my hair done and i wore a pretty much casual costume. i also didnt want to be the object of attention during the party. and to top it all, i really want to join the party games so dressing up too much might mean not joining at all. and so i went to the salon and HH's junior stylist fixed my hair. i love my hair that night. i really do! wish i did not forget to ask HH to take my pictures. anyways, while at the salon, one of my officemates also arrived there. it was a big surprise to know that she was a regular costumer there. small world huh?! she also had her hair fixed and had make-up. she was supposed to portray audrey hepburn... but she didnt look much like it since she's so chinita. so we went together to the party after gotten picked up by a fellow officemate. HH picked me up around 11pm and we went home after dropping some officemates at the office.
sunday noon i received a text message from one of my close friends. her aunt just died. i called her immediately and asked where her aunt's remains lay. when HH arrived at my house, i asked him to accompany me to the funeral house. Condolence to the family of the late tita cion. while at the funeral house, HH suddenly pulled my hand and asked if we can already leave. his eyes were turning red with tears. his hand was shaking as if he was so scared. i pulled my friend along with us and got out of the funeral house. while at the car, HH told us what he saw. he saw tita cion sitting next to my friend staring at us. He also said that tita cion was so sad and HH felt her sadness so much that's why he was about to cry awhile go. i felt goosebumps on my skin and the hair at the back of my neck standing. it was a scary thought that a dead person is just right beside you.
too much has happened the last few days. christmas is fast approaching. i still have so much to do. i dont want to spend my VL again without taking a good rest. ive finished watching season 2 of CSI. im starting to watch the CSI season1 dvds.
wish HH will have time to visit me. =(
Pre Christmas
today was a busy day since it's the eve of christmas. i marathoned csi season 1 again early this morning. i went online for a while to send the files ive finished debugging last night. during lunch time ma and i went to goldilocks and red ribbon to buy some cakes for noche buena later. we also went to a drugstore to buy medicine for pops. then we headed to the nearby baliwag lechon manok stand to buy of course, their lechon manok which was sarap-to-the-bones clean after we got home and ate lunch. during the afternoon i sewed my pants and pops' pants. the pair i had was too long so i had to cut it. anyways, the sewing machine was always my friend. i never had a hard time operating that machine.
pops is sick. i really cant tell what his ailment is because im not a doctor. he just kept complaining about the pain in his ass. that's literally a painful ass***e. too bad it had to happen during this time of the year. pops has been so grumpy the past days. he kept yelling at us and he never stopped complaining. wish he gets well pretty soon. i dont know how much patience i still have to endure his bad mood.
HH and i havent seen each other for 2 straight days. he seldom txts me that's why it pisses me off. i just cant understand guys!
pops is sick. i really cant tell what his ailment is because im not a doctor. he just kept complaining about the pain in his ass. that's literally a painful ass***e. too bad it had to happen during this time of the year. pops has been so grumpy the past days. he kept yelling at us and he never stopped complaining. wish he gets well pretty soon. i dont know how much patience i still have to endure his bad mood.
HH and i havent seen each other for 2 straight days. he seldom txts me that's why it pisses me off. i just cant understand guys!
Tuesday, December 16, 2003
Dante's Inferno Test
The Dante's Inferno Test has banished you to the Third Level of Hell!
Here is how you matched up against all the levels:
Take the Dante Inferno Hell Test
Here is how you matched up against all the levels:
| Level | Score |
|---|---|
| Purgatory (Repenting Believers) | Moderate |
| Level 1 - Limbo (Virtuous Non-Believers) | High |
| Level 2 (Lustful) | High |
| Level 3 (Gluttonous) | High |
| Level 4 (Prodigal and Avaricious) | Very Low |
| Level 5 (Wrathful and Gloomy) | Low |
| Level 6 - The City of Dis (Heretics) | Very Low |
| Level 7 (Violent) | Moderate |
| Level 8- the Malebolge (Fraudulent, Malicious, Panderers) | High |
| Level 9 - Cocytus (Treacherous) | Low |
Take the Dante Inferno Hell Test
Wednesday, December 10, 2003
Build Farm
We have a new term to refer to warcraft 3... "New Build..Farm" or "Work work work". hahaha. it sounds funny everytime my ofcmates try to imitate the voice and accent of the worker. Speaking of WC3, we weren't able to play yesterday because my "oh-so-arte-sa-food" ofcmate didnt want to eat at the canteen at the 8th floor so we had to go to Kitaro in rcbc to eat. and because of that, we didnt have time to play warcraft anymore when we got back from lunch. hmp! it wasnt a normal day without playing wc3.
Around 6pm we went to the 28th floor to play badminton, table tennis and billiards. my body is still aching. probably because i havent had any exercise for quite a long time. and of course my usual excuse... i dont have time to exercise. hehehe. it's a good thing that every wednesday, the courts are reserved for my ofc so we could use it. i promise to make time every wednesday to play.
HH told me that his mom told him that they're transferring to another house by january next year. =( ill really miss the condo in ortigas. i have so many memories with HH there. not to mention that the condo is just across robinsons galleria which is so accessible. hayy... if his mom would ask my opinion, i wouldnt sell that condo. ill give it to my eldest son when he gets married... so that would be HH.hehehe.. it's a good place to start for newly weds. though i still prefer a normal house if we will have kids. but i dont think i would want a kid on the first year of our marriage. maybe 2 to 3 years after we get married.
My god BG! what the hell are you talking about?! HH doesnt even have plans yet of getting married anytime soon. And so do I. I still want to do lots of things before finally settling down.
Im hungry now. i better end this one to eat lunch.
Around 6pm we went to the 28th floor to play badminton, table tennis and billiards. my body is still aching. probably because i havent had any exercise for quite a long time. and of course my usual excuse... i dont have time to exercise. hehehe. it's a good thing that every wednesday, the courts are reserved for my ofc so we could use it. i promise to make time every wednesday to play.
HH told me that his mom told him that they're transferring to another house by january next year. =( ill really miss the condo in ortigas. i have so many memories with HH there. not to mention that the condo is just across robinsons galleria which is so accessible. hayy... if his mom would ask my opinion, i wouldnt sell that condo. ill give it to my eldest son when he gets married... so that would be HH.hehehe.. it's a good place to start for newly weds. though i still prefer a normal house if we will have kids. but i dont think i would want a kid on the first year of our marriage. maybe 2 to 3 years after we get married.
My god BG! what the hell are you talking about?! HH doesnt even have plans yet of getting married anytime soon. And so do I. I still want to do lots of things before finally settling down.
Im hungry now. i better end this one to eat lunch.
Monday, December 08, 2003
Harry Potter Mania
since i woke up this morning, i was still thinking of harry potter book 4 i was reading last night. i still havent finished reading it but i only have a few more chapters left. too bad i was too sleepy last night to finish it. when i woke up, i immediately grabbed the book and continued reading it. but mama asked me to take a bath already because i will be late for office. and so i wasnt able to finish reading it again. im really excited to know what's going to happen because i am at the part where harry is faced with voldemort who regained his body and powers again. gosh! it's the most exciting part and i am left hanging! grrrrr! guess i have to settle with my downloaded ebooks of harry potter so i can read it here in my ofc. hehehe
Monday, December 01, 2003
CAN YOU EVER BE FRIENDS WITH YOUR EX?
got this from a fellow blogger. i also agree with her!
CAN YOU EVER BE FRIENDS WITH YOUR EX?
Although it would make things much easier in the dating world, relationships rarely see mutual breakups. One person is usually the heartbreaker, while the other mulls over the breakup and pain for weeks, even months. It's never easy to break up with someone you've shared good times with (and even if they were bad times, they were still times). But the person who does the breaking up feels like less of a bad guy by offering that sense of truce: "It's not you, it's me. We'll still be friends, right?" This peace offering of friendship provides the dumper with the solace of knowing they aren't such a horrible person because they still want to be friends with their ex.
I've created a monster
Not only does it give the dumper the comfort of knowing they aren't monsters, but by wanting to remain friends, it also allows the dumper to feel that their former lover will still be in their life, and they won't have to miss having them around. So now the dumper can move on with their life with ease, and with the pleasure of having coffee with their former mate every so often -- but the ex whose heart was ripped out and chewed up by the person who keeps leaving them friendly messages and e-mail isn't a happy camper.
Obviously, these messages on the machine and coffee dates don't last long, and if they do, they end even worse than the breakup. Yes, being friends with an ex-lover is an impossible feat: find out why. Exes must stay that way.
You've Seen Each Other Naked
Although it may be possible to have casual sex with a friend, even this can damage a relationship. As hard as it is to accept, it's difficult to bring a relationship back to its normal state after having been most intimate with someone. You will alwa! ys have an image of that person naked, and memories of the trysts will always be triggered by the smell of her skin or perfume, or even by hearing a song that you once made passionate love to.
And as thick-skinned as you are, it's hard to see the person in the same light after being entangled in each other's skin and sharing a moment of sheer ecstasy with one another. Why else can't exes become friends?
You Can't Confide In Each Other
As hard as two exes try to stay friends, they can never really confide in one another other. How do you tell your ex that you have a hot date tonight, or that you and your new lover are going away on a steamy getaway? You can't even tell your ex that the reason you're smiling so much is because a woman has just pleasured you like never before.
You can tell her these things, but new lovers and mates are always going to be a sensitive issue. It's even harder to tell her how hurt you were that your date stood you up the other night, thanks to your sense of pride. Remaining friends seems to provide us with the security blanket that the person who has been in our life will still be there, and we can call on them every once in a while to find out how they are -- but we'll never actually know how they really are.
Always One-Sided Bitterness
Since breakups are rarely one-sided, one party will always feel resentment or bitterness towards the other person. Even if your ex is feigning friendship, she's not sincerely your friend; so if it seems like plans with your new potential woman are always being sabotaged, they just might be.
Jealousy Comes Into Play
And where there's bitterness, there's jealousy. And the truth of the matter is, it's hard to be sincerely happy for your ex when they've just found the new love of their life.
You Don't Want Them With Anyone Else
It's human nature to be jealous or resentful when our ex finds a new person to cuddle up to, even if we don't have feelings for them anymore. It almost becomes a race of who will find the new lover first, a challenge especially brought on by the person who was dumped. Even for the person who did the breaking up, the thought of someone else taking your place in the memories that you and your ex shared is hard, and sometimes extremely painful to fathom.
Passion Still Exists
Even if your relationship was completely problem-ridden, chances are that the passion and sexual chemistry between the two of you still exists (unless lack of attraction was the reason for your breakup). This is a recipe for disaster because it means that every time you get together under this new "friendship" premise, the lust and passion you have makes it more likely that you'll end up in "one more" night of unbridled "goodbye" sex, for old times sake. This brings you right ! back to square one -- how you felt right after your breakup, and just when you were doing so well.
Moving on
Leaving the past behind is hard enough, and you don't want part of your past still programmed in your cell phone. Although it's easier for the dumper, recovering from a breakup is still a hard thing to do since it means being single again, getting back into the dating scene, and no longer making that daily goodnight call you and your ex used to share.
But having that person still lingering in your life as a constant reminder makes it even harder to move on with your life, meet new people and turn a fresh page. It's almost like keeping one foot in the past, and another struggling to make it back into the pickup scene. It also might be a better idea to leave things with pleasant memories of the other person, rather than drag the potentially doomed relationship through the mud.
In a perfect world, the ideal wo! uld be for exes to succeed at being friends, but in one where bitterness, jealousy, passion, and human nature exceed reasoning and rational thought, it's impossible. So unless the two of you were the best of friends before; both broke up on the same terms in a perfectly mutual breakup; both have no qualms about either of you seeing new people, and have both instilled a total honesty policy, better to leave the friendship behind... along with the memories.
CAN YOU EVER BE FRIENDS WITH YOUR EX?
Although it would make things much easier in the dating world, relationships rarely see mutual breakups. One person is usually the heartbreaker, while the other mulls over the breakup and pain for weeks, even months. It's never easy to break up with someone you've shared good times with (and even if they were bad times, they were still times). But the person who does the breaking up feels like less of a bad guy by offering that sense of truce: "It's not you, it's me. We'll still be friends, right?" This peace offering of friendship provides the dumper with the solace of knowing they aren't such a horrible person because they still want to be friends with their ex.
I've created a monster
Not only does it give the dumper the comfort of knowing they aren't monsters, but by wanting to remain friends, it also allows the dumper to feel that their former lover will still be in their life, and they won't have to miss having them around. So now the dumper can move on with their life with ease, and with the pleasure of having coffee with their former mate every so often -- but the ex whose heart was ripped out and chewed up by the person who keeps leaving them friendly messages and e-mail isn't a happy camper.
Obviously, these messages on the machine and coffee dates don't last long, and if they do, they end even worse than the breakup. Yes, being friends with an ex-lover is an impossible feat: find out why. Exes must stay that way.
You've Seen Each Other Naked
Although it may be possible to have casual sex with a friend, even this can damage a relationship. As hard as it is to accept, it's difficult to bring a relationship back to its normal state after having been most intimate with someone. You will alwa! ys have an image of that person naked, and memories of the trysts will always be triggered by the smell of her skin or perfume, or even by hearing a song that you once made passionate love to.
And as thick-skinned as you are, it's hard to see the person in the same light after being entangled in each other's skin and sharing a moment of sheer ecstasy with one another. Why else can't exes become friends?
You Can't Confide In Each Other
As hard as two exes try to stay friends, they can never really confide in one another other. How do you tell your ex that you have a hot date tonight, or that you and your new lover are going away on a steamy getaway? You can't even tell your ex that the reason you're smiling so much is because a woman has just pleasured you like never before.
You can tell her these things, but new lovers and mates are always going to be a sensitive issue. It's even harder to tell her how hurt you were that your date stood you up the other night, thanks to your sense of pride. Remaining friends seems to provide us with the security blanket that the person who has been in our life will still be there, and we can call on them every once in a while to find out how they are -- but we'll never actually know how they really are.
Always One-Sided Bitterness
Since breakups are rarely one-sided, one party will always feel resentment or bitterness towards the other person. Even if your ex is feigning friendship, she's not sincerely your friend; so if it seems like plans with your new potential woman are always being sabotaged, they just might be.
Jealousy Comes Into Play
And where there's bitterness, there's jealousy. And the truth of the matter is, it's hard to be sincerely happy for your ex when they've just found the new love of their life.
You Don't Want Them With Anyone Else
It's human nature to be jealous or resentful when our ex finds a new person to cuddle up to, even if we don't have feelings for them anymore. It almost becomes a race of who will find the new lover first, a challenge especially brought on by the person who was dumped. Even for the person who did the breaking up, the thought of someone else taking your place in the memories that you and your ex shared is hard, and sometimes extremely painful to fathom.
Passion Still Exists
Even if your relationship was completely problem-ridden, chances are that the passion and sexual chemistry between the two of you still exists (unless lack of attraction was the reason for your breakup). This is a recipe for disaster because it means that every time you get together under this new "friendship" premise, the lust and passion you have makes it more likely that you'll end up in "one more" night of unbridled "goodbye" sex, for old times sake. This brings you right ! back to square one -- how you felt right after your breakup, and just when you were doing so well.
Moving on
Leaving the past behind is hard enough, and you don't want part of your past still programmed in your cell phone. Although it's easier for the dumper, recovering from a breakup is still a hard thing to do since it means being single again, getting back into the dating scene, and no longer making that daily goodnight call you and your ex used to share.
But having that person still lingering in your life as a constant reminder makes it even harder to move on with your life, meet new people and turn a fresh page. It's almost like keeping one foot in the past, and another struggling to make it back into the pickup scene. It also might be a better idea to leave things with pleasant memories of the other person, rather than drag the potentially doomed relationship through the mud.
In a perfect world, the ideal wo! uld be for exes to succeed at being friends, but in one where bitterness, jealousy, passion, and human nature exceed reasoning and rational thought, it's impossible. So unless the two of you were the best of friends before; both broke up on the same terms in a perfectly mutual breakup; both have no qualms about either of you seeing new people, and have both instilled a total honesty policy, better to leave the friendship behind... along with the memories.
Subscribe to:
Posts (Atom)