Im leaving helsinki at 2:30pm. Finally, i will be able go back home. It's just amazing at how things happen at an instant... when decisions change as often as it could. Yep... ive finally decided to work things out again with HH. I asked god to give me a sign for today if i am meant to wait for the architect once again. When i woke up this morning, I immediately checked my email and friendster. No mails or messages from him... NADA! We'll it's not surprising anyway. He always has this tendency to make me wait since i am the woman who always patiently waited for him. For Christ's sake, i have waited long enough! A real gentleman wouldnt let women wait. If he doesnt want me, then i dont want him either. It's so obvious that he doesnt want any commitment now and i am just pushing myself to him. so better yet... break up with him. im just waiting to see him and break his heart in person so he would realize how painful it is. that is if he is not so darn naive enough. bitter... bitter... bitter...
i am thinking that maybe i should just stop communicating with him and pretend that i dont have time for him. it would be more painful i think... hmmmm... what do you think?? i think i am becoming insane because of too much thinking about my lovelife. this isnt really a good idea to do here in helsinki! i cant wait to get back to manila and spend time with the person who really loves me. maybe that would help me forget things about this a**hole. I should have known better.
so, HH will be picking me up from the airport. great! we could talk afterwards and start to fix things up between us. i am excited and a bit scared. he said he has a pasalubong for me from bangkok. he said it's not a shoe but it is something round... is it a ring? OMG! naku i hope he doesnt make any mistake of proposing to me tomorrow or else he'll just break his heart. i dont have plans yet of getting engaged. as in no plans at all! i dont want a complicated life and i dont want things to get out of hand. waaaaaaaahhhhhhh! now that is making me scared of going home.
anyway, i better finish packing my things... oh yeah.. im not yet done packing. talk about being irresponsible. anyways, gtg. see you in manila! i cant wait to be home again. bye helsinki!
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