Thursday, March 31, 2005

Overworked... underpaid

Im so fuc**n over-worked! I really am tired. Ok, last week i was complaining about being bored because I dont have a project, now, my projects are overflowing. I have about 3 projects lined up and waiting to get done. Waaaaahhh! How can I shuffle my time doing all those? I cant explain how exhausted I am. Hayyyy...

I need to talk to boss about my raise. God damn raise! I so fuc**n need a raise for all of these!

Monday, March 28, 2005

What type of cheese are you?

I am blue cheese!
Cheese Test: What type of cheese are you?

One of those ordinary days

1)Name the Things You Have Bought Today :
nothing yet

2)Name Four Drinks You Regularly Drink:
water, coffee, soya milk, nesvita

3)Last Time You Cried ?
the other night

4)What's In Your CD Player ?
nothing

5)What's Under Your Bed?
tons of shoes

6)What Time Did You Wake Up Today?
7:15am

7)Current hair:
long, straight hair

8)Current Clothes?
usual office attire, slacks & 3/4 sleeved shirt

9)Current Desktop Picture?
plain blue

10)Current Worry?
payment for credit card... i over-shopped last month =(

11) Current Hate?
my tabachoy body

12)Favorite Places To Be?
finland

13)Least Favorite Place?
my office here in makati

14)If You Could Play An Instrument, what would it be?
i play the piano and guitar but id like to learn playing the flute

15)Favorite Color(s)?
black, white, purple

16) How Tall Are You?
5'2

17)Current Favorite Word/s?
dota!

18)One Person From Your Past You Wish You Could Go Back And Talk To:
the architect

19)Favorite Day?
friday

20)Where Would You Like To Go this summer?
cebu

21)Where Do you want to live when you get married?
abroad... somewhere europe

22)Favorite foods?
pasta, taho, japanese food, ice cream

23)Color of most clothes you own:
black

24) Number of pillows you sleep w/?
5

25)What do you wear when you go to sleep?
shirt, boxers

26)What were you doing 12AM last night:
watching tv

27)How old will you be in 10 yrs?
34

28)What do you think you'll be doing in 10 years?
cook for a living, become a restauranteur, have my own family

29)braces?
nope

30)Are you paranoid?!
sometimes

31)Do you burn or tan?
burn although i am already dark

32)what is the brand of your wallet?
liz claiborne

33)Your alarm clock?
nokia phone

34)Your phone?
nokia

35.)your bag:
MFG

36)t.v?
sanyo

37)First real memory of something?
i cant remember

38)First screen name?
^kyle^

39)First piercing/tattoo?
ears

40)First enemy?
my seatmate back in grade 1

41) Last library book checked out?
some books for my thesis in college

42) Last person you yelled at?
punzi

43) Last crush?
nyoy... hahaha

44)Last CD played?
nyoy cd

45)Last fud you ate?
a slice of yellow cab pizza for lunch

46)Last annoyance?
code is not working! aarrgggghhh

47)Last disappointment?
my work

48)Last thing written by hand?
signature for a payment by credit card

49)Last words spoken?
hoy punzi, pakopya ng cv!

50)Last ice cream eaten?
selecta choco peanut ice cream on a stick... yummm!

Sunday, March 27, 2005

My Holy Week

Im back to blogging. My holy week was the usual holy week I had the past years. Holy Wednesday was spent inside the office. It wasnt declared a holiday. I also did not file for vacation leave because I have nowhere to go so I decided on going to the office instead and finish the things im supposed to do. I was able to play dota in the battle net so everything's good. =D

Maundy Thursday, HH and I went to the grocery. I always enjoy doing grocery shopping. Well I enjoy any kind of shopping may it be from expensive stores in helsinki, down to the wet markets here in manila. My mom and I share this common intereset. When I was younger, whenever im depressed, I do shopping to lift my spirits up. Good thing I got over this expensive habit when I started to support my family. Im now kuripot! Hahaha.

Good Friday we went to Nuve Ecija... HH's province in his fatherside. It was my third time to go there during holy week. Nothing so special about that visit besides the people i saw doing penitensya on the roadside. Some were walking barefoot, some were carrying big crosses, some were whipping their backs. Im not so comfortable seeing blood. I got scared when I saw the bloody backs of those guys by the roadside. Btw, i bought watermelons on our way back to manila the same day. Really sweet watermelons and just cheap! We had dinner at Italianni's after we arrived Manila. HH and I had pasta... no meat!

Saturday was spent at home the whole day. Saturday has always been my rest day so I decided to just stay home. HH visited me at lunch time. We cooked veggies for lunch. We just kept on eating and eating the whole day. Talk about fasting and abstinence!

Sunday morning, pops left for cebu to handle some business stuff there. Sunday noon, HH picked me up and we went to glorietta. We watched Ms. Congeniality 2 with his aunt, sister and cousin. I didnt expect the movie to be so funny. HH and I went to their house to meet his uncle's family. Since his aunt from Florida is leaving today, his family decided to have dinner together. There were lots of kids running inside the house. All of which were his uncle's kids... he's not the family planning kind of guy. hahaha. I like kids but when they start fighting and throwing things at each other and ruining the order inside the house, i just start to hate them.

Speaking of kids, I wonder where the architect and his kids spent their holy week. They might have flown abroad again. You know.. rich people just dont know where to spend their money. Hahaha. Well, I still think about the architect every once in a while. I just couldnt help it but at least it's not as often as it was before.

Durano clan reunion will be on the 29th of May which will be held at Danao city, Cebu. Im not sure yet if im going. Mom doesnt seem to have plans of going. i am also doubting if i can go.

Btw, im in the office and obviously not working. My mind is still on vacation mode. 4 days didnt seem enough for me to rest.

Wednesday, March 16, 2005

I was star struck!

I was on leave yesterday because i had to attend HH's mom's wedding. Yup... his mom and his stepdad finally got married after almost 4 years of living in together. It was held in Edsa Shangrila... Well, what can i say? It was indeed a celebrity wedding. Lots of artists were there like Eula Valdez, Lotlot de Leon, Ai-Ai de las Alas, Sylvia Sanchez, etc. Since both HH's parents work with celebrities, it wasnt a surprise to me to see that much artists together in one occasion.

Im so sleepy. HH took me home at around 1am. Still tired but with a smile painted on my face. I enjoyed the party last night. As in extremely enjoyed. HH's family in his motherside was there. I think HH introduced me to almost everybody... quite scary knowing that time may come ill also belong to this family... hahaha.. assuming! Anyway, it was just a civil wedding but overly bongga! Absolutely great food... there were lambchops, ribeye steak, duck, chicken, pork, shrimps and scallops, etc. The dessert was fabulous! Lots of cheesecakes to choose from, hot mango crepe, tiramisu, choco mousse, etc. I could go on and on talking about the food at the reception.

What I also liked about the wedding was the ballroom dance presentation. The dancers were professional ballroom dancers who join competitions here and abroad. Cool huh?! Ala JLo-Richard Geere's Shall We Dance movie. Really really nice! Some of the dancers were even kids. Amazing!

Hmm.. flowers... there were lots of tulips. The place was so beautiful because of the flowers. Tulips in a wedding.. ok.. costs around 150++ a stem... quite expensive huh?! I wonder if HH and I can ever afford that lavish wedding?

I was so overwhelmed by the wedding that I was actually imagining how my wedding should look like. Hahahahaha. Til here for now. Need to start working. =)

Wednesday, March 09, 2005

Energy Burst

I hate this feeling. I was thinking about the architect again last night after seeing his cousin go offline in ym. The architect sometimes uses his cousin's ym when talking to me because he always forgets his password for his yahoo account. Seeing his cousin go offline made me nervous. And for some reason, I just felt that it was him who was online and not his cousin. I was visibly online then, how come he didnt buzz me or sent me any message?! Fine.. im assumming again.

This morning I checked friendster. Some evil force made me click the architect's name and there it showed... his friendster acount. I didnt see any change in his account. Last log-in was nov.22... around the same time we were still communicating. What surprised me was his testimonial list. I didnt see any testi's on his account. Weird thing is that my testimonial for him was gone. I did not delete it. Nor would I think of deleting it even if I were angry at him. Hmmm... friendster bug? If he did delete my testimonial, well at least he deleted all testimonials in his account...hahaha. I shouldnt feel bad.

Im really annoyed at how I am reacting to the things that's happening around me. I know I should not be feeling this way towards the architect. It's been three months that we arent talking and I should be angry at him for leading me on and for making me believe in things that arent true. But I just cant get mad at him. Hayyy...

Monday, March 07, 2005

Snickers

1. Call me ..
- blue ginger

2. What color of pants are you wearing right now?
- gray striped pants

3. What Are You Listening To Right Now?
- mouse clicks and keyboard strokes

4. What Was The Last Thing You Ate?
- hot loops peanutbutter donut

5. Do You Believe In Karma?
- yes

6. If You Were A Crayon, what color would you be? Why?
- purple.. i love the color.

7. How Is The Weather Right Now?
- a bit hot

8. Last Person You Talked To On The Phone?
- mom.. asked if im going to eat dinner at home

9. Do You Like The Person Who Sent You This?
- Nobody sent this to me

10. How Are You ?
- tired, bored

11. Favorite Drink(s)?
- water

12. Favorite Alcoholic Drink?
- smirnoff ice

13. Favorite Sport?
- volleyball

14.Favorite Hair Color?
- dark brown

15. Favorite Eye Color?
- hazel

16. Favorite Band?
- nothing in particular

17. # of x bf/gf?
- ummm... let's see... ummm.. two serious ones

18. Favorite Months?
- november, december.. a lot of holidays..haha

19. Favorite Foods?
- taho, shrimp, pasta

20. Last Movie You Watched?
- Hero in vcd

21. Favorite Days of the Year?
- christmas and my birthday

23. What Was Your Favorite Toy As A Child?
- lutu-lutuan... hahaha

24. Summer or Winter?
- summer

25. Hugs Or Kisses?
- hugs

26. Chocolate Or Vanilla?
- vanilla

27. What do you think about loving someone who doesn't love you?
- you cant force someone to love you... to have someone to love is a choice but to have someone to love you back is a gift.

28. What are the things that make you feel uncomfortable?
- when im bored, when i dont like the crowd

29. Do You Think You're Normal?
- hmm... i would like to believe I am.

30. Friends You Have Had The Longest?
- My playmates in the neighborhood.

31. What Did You Do Last Night?
- reformatted pc while watching CSI

32. Favorite Smells?
- carolina herrera for men

33. What Inspires You?
- my ambition... the thing i would like to attain couple of years from now

34. What Are You Afraid Of?
- losing someone important to me

35. Plain, Buttered Or Salted Popcorn?
- buttered

36. Missing someone?
- absolutely!

37. How'd you know if he/she likes you?
- instinct!

Saturday, March 05, 2005

Seven Months Ago

Exactly this day, also at around this time, it should have been my 7th month together with the architect. Discussing things about him has never been easy for me. Especially the last few things that has happened to the two of us last year. I know i am crazy. Imagine, I broke up with a long term boyfriend for someone whom technically, I barely knew. I have always been sure with my decisions involving my future, my career, my family. But it seems that everytime that decision involves the architect, i just stop being logical. Everytime he's around, my heart just leaps. He doesnt make me sleep. I still think about him. Sometimes I think im going insane because I still imagine myself with him even if the truth dictates that everything with him is already over. Is this obssession?

The things that happened between us still hurt me. I may appear tough and already over it but honestly, it's just a facade so that other people wont pity me or my friends will not get mad at me. I just wish he's alright and fine. I just wish he's happy and not as miserable as I am.

Maybe for the next months I will still try to drown myself with so much work so that I wont have time to even think of him. It's just that it's not easy to teach your heart to love someone else when another person still occupies that big space in your heart. I am still in love with him.

Friday, March 04, 2005

Power Treads

This is the first friday this year that I dont have any gimik. And because of that, I ended up spending this friday night here in my office. I had to stay late here in the office to do some estimates for a prospective project with Nokia again. Yehey! I dont know if i should be happy knowing that I will get involved with Nokia again because the new project is sap enterprise portal migration of their existing ESS-MSS application. SAP EP and ESS-MSS are the two things I dislike most these days! Waaaaahhhhh!

Anyway, to kill time, I'll just answer some nonsense surveys. =D

Color of most clothes you own
* black

Number of pillows you sleep with
* 5

What room are you in right now?
* my cubicle in the office

What were you doing 12AM last night?
* trying to sleep

How old will you be in 10 yrs?
* 35

What do you think you'll be doing in 10 years?
* taking care of my family and cooking for a living

Do you have braces?
* nope

Are you paranoid?
* sometimes

DESCRIBE

Your wallet?
* Big black rectangular Liz Claiborne leather wallet

Your alarm clock?
* my phone

Your hair?
* straight, long

Tooth brush?
* purple and white oral-b

What color are your eyes?
* dark brown

Piercing/tattoo?
* ears

First love?
* he's now a good friend who owes me 20k(because of my investment to him)

First enemy?
* can't remember

First big trip?
* first trip to cebu when i was a kid.... about 5 years old

First played instrument?
* piano

Last good cry?
* few months back

Last movie seen?
* constantine

Last person you yelled at?
* my cubemate

Last beverage drank?
* water

Last crush?
* back in college

Last shoes worn?
* brown walking shoes i bought in helsinki in a sale

Last annoyance?
* annoying SAP portal giving out weird error messages

Last ice cream eaten?
* chocolate marble.. a treat from an officemate who's going to be a dad soon

Last thing written by hand?
* my signature

Last time wanting to die?
* cant remember

Last time in love?
* i believe im still in love

Wednesday, March 02, 2005

Mask of Madness

The other morning before I took a bath, which was around 7:30am, I watched this early morning tv show in studio23. Guess who was being interviewed there? Marc0 A... as in The Marco. No offense to his fans but I dont think marco had a good reputation to me prior to his joining showbusiness. Well, he's still good looking as ever but i dont think he ever changed his bad traits since I knew him. According to his friend, his bestfriend from cebu to be exact, he did not change. My god, back then i thought it was the worst he can ever get!Haha. Anyway, it's for his fans to decide who the real marco is. Ok, ok... i better stop talking about him before my blog turns into a chismis column.

Everyday we play dota allstars in the office. One during lunchbreak and a couple more games before going home in the evening. Im admittedly addicted to the game. =(

We went to enchanted kingdom friday last week. I really enjoyed the rides there. Im posting some pictures shortly. I was the one who really got so wet in the Rio Grande Rapids. We had to ride it twice so everybody will get his chance of getting wet. Hahaha. Oh well, i just wanted to get even with my friends who barely got wet during the 1st ride. We rode the bump car twice. We also tried the 4D and Go Cart inside the EK. They had a bigger race track but i think theirs is more dangerous than that of speedzone because when you make a wrong turn, you'll end up getting trapped in the grassy and sandy part of the road before hitting the barriers. Unlike in speedzone, you'll immediately hit the barriers. Not to mention the track in EK has a bigger width with less curves and turns needed so you can really step on the gas and make the cart go faster easily. Anyway, i still had a great time driving inspite of a little numbness in the arms because it's not power steering.Hehe.

Im off to play dota now... =D