(x) Beauty & The Beast
( ) Napoleon Dynamite
( ) Saw
(x) White Noise
( ) White Oleander
(x) Anger Management
(x) 50 First Dates
(x) Jason X
( ) Scream
( ) Scream 2
( ) Scream 3
(x) Scary Movie
( ) Scary Movie 2
( ) Scary Movie 3
(x) American Pie
(x) American Pie 2
(x) American Wedding
(x) Harry Potter
(x) Harry Potter 2
(x) Harry Potter 3
( )Resident Evil I
(x) Resident Evil 2
(x) The Wedding Singer
( ) Little Black Book
( ) The Village
( ) Donnie Darko!!
(x) Lilo & Stitch
( ) Wimbledon
( ) Love On The Rocks
(x) LXG
(x) Beautiful Mind
(x) Finding Nemo
( ) Finding Neverland
(x) 13 Ghosts
(x) Signs
( ) The Grinch
( ) Texas Chainsaw Massacre
(x) White Chicks
( ) Butterfly Effect
( ) Thirteen Going On 30
( ) I, Robot
( ) Dodge ball
( ) Universal Soldier
( ) A Series Of Unfortunate Events
( ) Along Came A Spider
(x) Deep impact
( ) KingPin
( ) Never Been Kissed
( ) Meet The Parents
( ) Meet The Fockers
( ) Eight Crazy Nights
( ) A Cinderella Story
( ) The Terminal
( ) The Lizzie McGuire Movie
( ) Passport to Paris
(X) Dumb & Dumber
( ) Dumb & Dumberer
( ) Final Destination
( ) Final Destination 2
( ) Halloween
(X) The Ring
( ) Harold & Kumar (white castle)
( ) Practical Magic
(X) Chicago
( ) Ghost Ship
( ) From Hell
(X) Hellboy
( ) Secret Window
( ) I Am Sam
( ) The Whole Ten Yards
(X) The Day After Tomorrow
( ) Child's Play
( ) Bride of Chucky
( ) The Seed of Chucky
( ) Ten Things I Hate About You
(X) Just Married
(X) Gothika
( ) A Nightmare on Elm Street
( ) Sixteen Candles (THIS WAS LOVELY)
(X) Bad Boys 2
( ) Joy Ride
( ) Seven
(X) Ocean's Eleven
(X) Oceans Twelve
( ) Identity
( ) Lone Star
(X) Bedazzled
( ) Predator I
( ) Predator II
(X) Independence Day
( ) Cujo
( ) A Bronx Tale
( ) Darkness Falls
( ) Christine
( ) E.T.
( ) Children of the Corn
( ) My boss' daughter
(X) Maid in Manhattan
( ) Frailty
( ) Best bet
(X) How to Lose a Guy in 10 Days
(X) She's All That
( ) Calendar Girls
( ) Sideways
(X) Mars Attacks
( ) Event Horizon
( ) Ever after
(X) Forrest Gump
( ) Big Trouble in Little China
(X) X-men 1
(X) X-men 2
( ) Jeepers Creepers
( ) Jeepers Creepers 2
( ) Catch Me If You Can
(X) The Others
( ) Freaky Friday
( ) Reign of Fire
(X) Cruel Intentions
(X) The Hot Chick
( ) Swimfan
( ) Miracle
( ) Old School
( ) Ray
( ) The Notebook
( ) K-Pax
(X) Lord of the Rings: The Fellowship of the Ring
(X) Lord of the Rings: The Two Towers
(X) Lord of the Rings: The Return of the King
(X) A Walk to Remember
( ) Boogeyman
(X) Hitch
( ) Back Door Sluts 9
(X) The Fifth Element
(X) Star wars episode I
(X) Star wars episode II
(X) Star wars episode IV
(X) Star wars episode V
(X) Star wars episode VI
( ) Troop Beverly Hills
( ) Swimming with Sharks
( ) Transporting
( ) People under the stairs
( ) Blue Velvet
(X) Sound of music
(X) Parent Trap
( ) THE BURBS
( ) SLC Punk
( ) Meet Joe Black
( ) Wild girls
( ) a clockwork orange
( ) The Order
(X) Spiderman
(X) Spiderman 2
( ) Amelie
( ) Mean Girls
(X) Shrek
(X) Shrek 2
(X) The Incredibles
( ) Collateral
(X) The Fast & The Furious
(X) 2 Fast 2 Furious
( ) Sky Captain and the World of Tomorrow
( ) Closer
(X) The Sixth Sense
(X) Artificial intelligence
Saturday, April 30, 2005
Thursday, April 28, 2005
Cancelled Date
My house is still in chaos because some of our relatives are still there. I think they will be leaving this weekend. I am also leaving for helsinki tomorrow.
My date with the architect has been cancelled. he's still in singapore doing some advertising work. =( Im leaving tomorrow so there's no hope of seeing him for the next 3 months.
My date with the architect has been cancelled. he's still in singapore doing some advertising work. =( Im leaving tomorrow so there's no hope of seeing him for the next 3 months.
Monday, April 25, 2005
Fears and Doubts
i am scared. i am scared of the things that i cannot give up easily because of loving the architect. I am scared that when I see him on friday, i might fall in love with him more. I am scared that he might not find me as the same person he met 6 years ago and will not like me for who i have become. I am scared that I cannot give up my career that I worked hard for for the past 4 years of my existence. I am scared that I cannot guarantee i will feel fulfilled with just being a housewife to him and a mother to his kids. I am scared that one day he might be gone and I have nothing left to hold on to. I am scared because my family cannot accept him easily because he's divorced and has 3 kids. I am scared that the kind of life he wants to give me, might not be the kind of life i really want to live. I am scared that i might have so many regrets in my life just because i chose him.
I am scared of so many things. I hope the architect can take away at least half of my doubts and fears. I do love him.
I am scared of so many things. I hope the architect can take away at least half of my doubts and fears. I do love him.
Friday, April 22, 2005
Im just a little unwell
I have been having a bad week and maybe today is the ultimate uneventful experience I had. My uncle jhun died this morning at around 5:30am. Wednesday night, he was rushed to the hospital because of high blood pressure and he collapsed. Yesterday, i heard my mom saying that my uncle is in bad shape and in semi-coma. That same day, at around 9pm, mom called me again. Her voice was so panic stricken. She asked me to hurry to the hospital because i might not see my uncle alive anymore. I was so worried more for my mom and lola because I dont know what might happen to them. Mom said that my uncle had an attack again and was just revived by the doctors. When i got to the hospital with HH, i saw my uncle. I was shocked. He's technically brain dead, has no blood pressure but still breathing because of the machine stuck in him. For the first time in my life, I saw a dying person. Doctors told my family that they cant do anything to save him anymore and we should just pray for the best.
To my uncle, may he rest in peace. He's now with my lolo who passed away 12 years ago. Im going to the wake later after i spend some time with HH tonight because i might not be able to spend friday next week with him. Read on below and ill explain why i might not be able to spend time with HH next friday. =)
The architect and I have been talking everyday through chat, sms and phonecalls. I dont know what exactly happend but we're kinda something like we are a couple. I dont know. I cant explain. Our conversations just began to sound more intimate each time. He's been so sweet to me lately. He makes it a point to send me sms everyday. Nice! Something he didnt do for the last time we were really a couple. Anyway, he doesnt know about HH and neither does HH know about him. I dont want to say that im fooling around because technically, the architect and I never discussed the "us" thing. there was no actual agreement that we are together. I think it's what we call mutual understanding... the usual M.U. in a deeper sense. Our conversation topics ranged from our usual rants about work, to our plans when we get old, to getting married. Really amazing! I just feel so comfortable talking to him about my plans. But then there's this one issue that disturbed me... He said that if ever we end up getting married, he wouldnt allow me to work. Well he wouldnt allow me to have the same kind of work as I have now. He said that working moms cant always be there for the family and that with the kind of job he has, he would need a wife to take care of him. But he told me that if I cant give up my job, then he would probably spend more time working because there's no one else to look forward to when he gets home. oh sweet! Anyway, he wants us to live in cebu if we decide to settle down. i told him that my family is here in manila and ill miss them so much. He said that we'll just visit my family once in awhile and we'll just stay at his house in greenhills. I told him, it's his house not our house. He said that he wouldnt ask me to sign a pre-nuptial agreement before getting married so that means it's going to be conjugal property. I told him that i was expecting he'd ask me to sign prenup papers because he's rich and im not. he told me that what's the use of working so hard if he doesnt have someone to leave everything he worked for when he dies. wow!
He's in singapore right now. He had to fly there today for a client meeting together with his creative team. Even if he's busy nowadays, he tries to find time to let me know where he is and how he's doing. =) improving huh?! i wonder how long will this last?!? i cant wait for friday. he said he's coming over to see me before i leave for helsinki. I am leaving this saturday. One day would be enough for me to gauge if this so called relationship that he made me believe in is really worth fighting for. goodluck to me.
To my uncle, may he rest in peace. He's now with my lolo who passed away 12 years ago. Im going to the wake later after i spend some time with HH tonight because i might not be able to spend friday next week with him. Read on below and ill explain why i might not be able to spend time with HH next friday. =)
The architect and I have been talking everyday through chat, sms and phonecalls. I dont know what exactly happend but we're kinda something like we are a couple. I dont know. I cant explain. Our conversations just began to sound more intimate each time. He's been so sweet to me lately. He makes it a point to send me sms everyday. Nice! Something he didnt do for the last time we were really a couple. Anyway, he doesnt know about HH and neither does HH know about him. I dont want to say that im fooling around because technically, the architect and I never discussed the "us" thing. there was no actual agreement that we are together. I think it's what we call mutual understanding... the usual M.U. in a deeper sense. Our conversation topics ranged from our usual rants about work, to our plans when we get old, to getting married. Really amazing! I just feel so comfortable talking to him about my plans. But then there's this one issue that disturbed me... He said that if ever we end up getting married, he wouldnt allow me to work. Well he wouldnt allow me to have the same kind of work as I have now. He said that working moms cant always be there for the family and that with the kind of job he has, he would need a wife to take care of him. But he told me that if I cant give up my job, then he would probably spend more time working because there's no one else to look forward to when he gets home. oh sweet! Anyway, he wants us to live in cebu if we decide to settle down. i told him that my family is here in manila and ill miss them so much. He said that we'll just visit my family once in awhile and we'll just stay at his house in greenhills. I told him, it's his house not our house. He said that he wouldnt ask me to sign a pre-nuptial agreement before getting married so that means it's going to be conjugal property. I told him that i was expecting he'd ask me to sign prenup papers because he's rich and im not. he told me that what's the use of working so hard if he doesnt have someone to leave everything he worked for when he dies. wow!
He's in singapore right now. He had to fly there today for a client meeting together with his creative team. Even if he's busy nowadays, he tries to find time to let me know where he is and how he's doing. =) improving huh?! i wonder how long will this last?!? i cant wait for friday. he said he's coming over to see me before i leave for helsinki. I am leaving this saturday. One day would be enough for me to gauge if this so called relationship that he made me believe in is really worth fighting for. goodluck to me.
Tuesday, April 19, 2005
Here I Go Again
Ive been extremely busy lately but I really have to blog about what happened to me yesterday. I went down for my usual merienda break to buy food. When I got back to my desk, I saw the strangest name buzzing me in my messenger... it's the architect. We chatted until I dont know what time it was. My officemates said that I was blushing while I was talking to him. Obvious kinikilig. Hahaha. I dont know what happened to my principles and my so called getting-over plan but it just suddenly disappeared when I spoke to him. I missed him so much.
We just talked about the usual things we discuss like what's happening to our lives. He asked me where I was and I told him that im still in manila but will be leaving for helsinki next week. He got sad because he said he's flying to manila next friday. Good thing my flight is on saturday... a day after he's arriving. And so he was planning to pick me up from my office and have dinner. Ive waited for this for a long time... to be given a chance to spend time with him. Seems like destiny is against us. We only have a day or half a day to spend with each other and find out if the feelings that we once had is still the same. Maybe God just wants me to experience how it is to be with the architect for a short time so that when I get to helsinki, I can weigh things again and make a decision. (Here I go again! for the Nth time!) I dont know what to think. It just seems like the architect wants me back and work things out with me for good this time around. Im quite scared actually because HH and I are technically still together but my heart will never be his... after a long time, my heart still belongs to the architect.
Anyway, when I got home from the office which was arround 11pm(HH picked me up and sent me home) the architect and I were exchanging sms. He admitted that he really wants to work things out with me this time. He has so much plans when he gets here in manila. I suddenly lost track of whom to spend my last days here in manila with. HH wants me to see him friday night. Architect wants to date me the wholeday of friday then my remaining hours in manila on saturday before my flight. waaahhhh!!! I really dont know what to do. But one thing's for sure... the two cannot meet. As in! It will be a disaster and I dont want that to happen.
Btw, the architect bought a house in greenhills. My god.. of all places?! why so near HH's house in Valle Verde. Waaahhhh! I shouldnt be caught seeing any 1 of them anywhere in greenhills and ortigas. Manila is too small and crowded. Anyway, architect also called me yesterday for the reason that he just wants to hear my voice. weird huh?!
He said iloveyou. that's the highlight of yesterday's events. =)
We finally stopped texting at 2am awhile ago. I am already in the office by 7am. I woke up at 5:30am with a smile painted on my face. I just cant stop smiling. I look weird, i know. Even if Im still sooooooo sleepy, i still feel energized. The architect is my energizer bunny... keeps me going and going and going...
We just talked about the usual things we discuss like what's happening to our lives. He asked me where I was and I told him that im still in manila but will be leaving for helsinki next week. He got sad because he said he's flying to manila next friday. Good thing my flight is on saturday... a day after he's arriving. And so he was planning to pick me up from my office and have dinner. Ive waited for this for a long time... to be given a chance to spend time with him. Seems like destiny is against us. We only have a day or half a day to spend with each other and find out if the feelings that we once had is still the same. Maybe God just wants me to experience how it is to be with the architect for a short time so that when I get to helsinki, I can weigh things again and make a decision. (Here I go again! for the Nth time!) I dont know what to think. It just seems like the architect wants me back and work things out with me for good this time around. Im quite scared actually because HH and I are technically still together but my heart will never be his... after a long time, my heart still belongs to the architect.
Anyway, when I got home from the office which was arround 11pm(HH picked me up and sent me home) the architect and I were exchanging sms. He admitted that he really wants to work things out with me this time. He has so much plans when he gets here in manila. I suddenly lost track of whom to spend my last days here in manila with. HH wants me to see him friday night. Architect wants to date me the wholeday of friday then my remaining hours in manila on saturday before my flight. waaahhhh!!! I really dont know what to do. But one thing's for sure... the two cannot meet. As in! It will be a disaster and I dont want that to happen.
Btw, the architect bought a house in greenhills. My god.. of all places?! why so near HH's house in Valle Verde. Waaahhhh! I shouldnt be caught seeing any 1 of them anywhere in greenhills and ortigas. Manila is too small and crowded. Anyway, architect also called me yesterday for the reason that he just wants to hear my voice. weird huh?!
He said iloveyou. that's the highlight of yesterday's events. =)
We finally stopped texting at 2am awhile ago. I am already in the office by 7am. I woke up at 5:30am with a smile painted on my face. I just cant stop smiling. I look weird, i know. Even if Im still sooooooo sleepy, i still feel energized. The architect is my energizer bunny... keeps me going and going and going...
Wednesday, April 13, 2005
My Amazing Life
A lot of things has been happening to me the past few weeks that I dont even have time to blog about it. Well actually, I preferred not to talk about it here in my blog because I dont think i am ready to talk about it. Anyway, for historical reasons, i will still post those things even if im not exactly ready to talk about it.
Last week, I saw the architect go offline. Which meant he was online. My heart stopped when I saw his name flashing on my screen. I was invisible then so there was no way he could have seen me online. Something in me wished I wasnt invisible in my messenger. Something in me also was thankful that we werent given that chance to talk again. I dont know. I dont want to think about it. Not now. Not soon.
I confess, that after seeing him go offline, I checked on his friendster account. =( I saw the last login date was that same day. Which meant he was really online and i did not see a ghost.
I have been going to the gym regularly the past 2 weeks. Im trying to lose weight before my boss' wedding. (Im a born crammer you know!) The wedding will be on the 28th, just a few days from now.
Im also leaving for finland really soon. Im scheduled to fly on the 30th of april. Actually, I was supposed to be there on the 20th but I complained that I dont have enough time to fix my visa and other stuff before leaving. My officemate, punzi, is coming with me. Yehey! Im going there because of another project, not the same one as the last year when I was also sent there. Since this is going to be my 3rd trip, im not as excited as the 1st and 2nd one. I just hope no medical problems will haunt me.
My aunt, well technically she's just a close family friend, went home here in pinas from the states. She's with her family and will be staying with us until next month. Too bad im leaving soon so I cant spend more time with her and her family. This also means I cant attend this year's Durano clan reunion in Cebu this May. Hayy... Im missing so many events here in the philippines because of this trip.
My cousin is pregnant. Yes, she's the same cousin I was talking about in my other blogs who was supposed to be hired by the architect in his company. No, she didnt get hired. Yes, she's 3 months pregnant. No, her parents doesnt know about it and there's only a few of us who knows about her condition. Yes, that A**HOLE guy who got her preggy doesnt want to recognize her kid as his. I just want to kill that guy even if it means the baby will be fatherless. Grrr...
The Chad, my officemate in finland, flatmate, project manager, etc, is coming here in manila on the 20th in time for my boss' wedding. Yehey! We're supposed to go to boracay but because im flying to helsinki the same weekend, I wont be able to come with them. =( Waaaaahhhh!!! No boracay trip for me. No gimik with chad either.
Last week, I saw the architect go offline. Which meant he was online. My heart stopped when I saw his name flashing on my screen. I was invisible then so there was no way he could have seen me online. Something in me wished I wasnt invisible in my messenger. Something in me also was thankful that we werent given that chance to talk again. I dont know. I dont want to think about it. Not now. Not soon.
I confess, that after seeing him go offline, I checked on his friendster account. =( I saw the last login date was that same day. Which meant he was really online and i did not see a ghost.
I have been going to the gym regularly the past 2 weeks. Im trying to lose weight before my boss' wedding. (Im a born crammer you know!) The wedding will be on the 28th, just a few days from now.
Im also leaving for finland really soon. Im scheduled to fly on the 30th of april. Actually, I was supposed to be there on the 20th but I complained that I dont have enough time to fix my visa and other stuff before leaving. My officemate, punzi, is coming with me. Yehey! Im going there because of another project, not the same one as the last year when I was also sent there. Since this is going to be my 3rd trip, im not as excited as the 1st and 2nd one. I just hope no medical problems will haunt me.
My aunt, well technically she's just a close family friend, went home here in pinas from the states. She's with her family and will be staying with us until next month. Too bad im leaving soon so I cant spend more time with her and her family. This also means I cant attend this year's Durano clan reunion in Cebu this May. Hayy... Im missing so many events here in the philippines because of this trip.
My cousin is pregnant. Yes, she's the same cousin I was talking about in my other blogs who was supposed to be hired by the architect in his company. No, she didnt get hired. Yes, she's 3 months pregnant. No, her parents doesnt know about it and there's only a few of us who knows about her condition. Yes, that A**HOLE guy who got her preggy doesnt want to recognize her kid as his. I just want to kill that guy even if it means the baby will be fatherless. Grrr...
The Chad, my officemate in finland, flatmate, project manager, etc, is coming here in manila on the 20th in time for my boss' wedding. Yehey! We're supposed to go to boracay but because im flying to helsinki the same weekend, I wont be able to come with them. =( Waaaaahhhh!!! No boracay trip for me. No gimik with chad either.
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