God First!

Whenever I go to a big SFC event, I always have this feeling of being holy and empowered *in terms of faith* afterwards. It is a nice feeling because other people perceive me as someone kinder, more caring and nicer. It is odd, I know! Last weekend's retreat was one of those times that God answered the questions that's been bothering me. Last weekend was a reaffirmation for me that the service I have been doing in the community should not stop and inspite of a more busy and hectic work life, I should not slow down in my service. I know that I have my ups and lows in my faith. There were times that I questioned His plans for me. But then again, God's unwavering love for us has always led us back to Him. Now after this powerful weekend, how can I prolong the empowering effect from last weekend's lessons and worship? Yes, it'll be difficult. I will just try to always, always remind myself to put God first above all other things. Yes, God first!

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Red-Black or Gray-White?

The first pair of jordans just arrived awhile ago. It's the bulls edition. I got him a second pair...




Photos from sneakerhead.com

He's one lucky boyfriend. I think this'll be the first and last gift I'm going to give him for the rest of the year. Haha.

File Extensions Resource

For techie people like me who's been all over the internet and makes a living out of the information technology, this website is a very helpful resource for finding out what file extension names are for. File Extension Library has a comprehensive database of file extensions. Each file extension has a brief description that are pretty much straightforward and easy to understand. The file extension also contains pointers on how to open the specified file type.

In relation to what I do for a living, here's a quick info on JAR files. JAR stands for Java Archive. It is a group of files bundled together into one archive file. Some JAR files are executable. Within a JAR file, you can find java classes which are compiled java code, metadata and other auxiliary files. JAR files can be opened in the same way as how ZIP files are opened meaning you can use archiving tools to open it such as WINZIP or WINRAR.

The description of JAR files above is just one of the many file extension types that you can find in the File Extension Library website. Check out their site to know more about unfamiliar file extensions such as djvu, daa, mdf, lst, mov, sfv, among many others.

I Spoil My Man

Been searching all over the net for these Jordan XX3 Chicago Bulls edition in size 9.5 and fortunately, I found them on eBay... only on eBay! Yes, I got the bf these because he's a shoe collector and he's a Bulls fan. I have never ever bought shoes this expensive for myself but what the heck... true love is all about giving. *naks!* I really hope he likes it.


Photo credits: sneakerhead.com

Hmmm.. I think I should get points for researching what gift he would like and surprising him with it. Oh btw, the shoes comes with a plane ticket to Phoenix because he needs to pick them up from me personally. Haha.

Seven Things Men Find Romantic

Got this from a multiply buddy and I have yet to find out if these are true...

1. Dress Up for Me
"Consider dressing for his tastes and not just yours once in a while," says Barbara De Angelis, Ph.D., author of "Secrets About Men Every Woman Should Know." "Take him shopping and have him choose outfits he would like to see you in."
Remember, you're doing this for him, not for you. And, as psychologist Ronald Goldstein, Ph.D., a marriage counselor in Newtown, Pennsylvania, explains: "Women should keep in mind that men are visually oriented." Trust me, men find it very romantic when you step wholeheartedly into our debauched little fantasy worlds. If we're hard-wired to be turned on by visual cues, why not indulge us -- and use it to your advantage?

2. Initiate Physical Affection
Whether you're playing footsie under the table or placing a hand on our shoulders while scooting behind our chairs, men find the touch of the woman they love unbelievably reassuring. In our treasured nonverbal language, it translates as: "I accept you... I love you... We're a team."

3. Give Me a Night Out with the Boys -- No Strings Attached
It may seem odd to you that a romantic gesture might not involve you at all. But dogs run with dogs, wolves run with wolves, and every so often, guys just have to break away and run with the guys (drooling and howling optional).

4. Tell Me What a Big, Strong Guy I am
We men are famously incompetent at expressing ourselves verbally... but that doesn't mean we don't appreciate hearing a little praise now and then. In particular, we draw a lot of our identity from our maleness. Nurturing our big-ape fantasies -- me Tarzan, you Jane -- lets us know you value us as males, which is somehow important to the continued production of testosterone.
A quick insight into men: We all want to be heroes. Remembering to compliment your mate on being a great partner isn't always easy in the middle of a busy day, but it's a quick shortcut to making him feel wanted, needed, and loved, which is of course the ultimate point of any romantic gesture. And this positive reinforcement of your mate's good behavior will yield big dividends later, as he subconsciously tries to live up to your glowing appraisal.

5. Score Me a Pair of Tickets to the Big Game
Which would you rather receive from your mate: a weekend at a spa or a new set of cookware? The spa is by far the more romantic gift, if only because he doesn't stand to gain anything from it. Gifts that don't benefit the giver are somehow purer because they demonstrate you care only about making your partner happy. So when you're thinking about gifts, try not to think about what you'd like to get him, but what he'd like to receive.

6. Show Interest in My Outside Life
We live in a fast-paced world, and we all know it's easy enough to get wrapped up in our own routines. But finding ways to let a man know you care about all aspects of his life, not just the parts he shares with you, is a great way to show you love the whole man. Shoot him a few well-directed questions about work to help him unwind, surprise him with a book relating to a hobby, track down a website that deals with some problem he's having -- all are touching gestures I guarantee will be well received.

7. Tell Me a Secret
Men want to be soul mates, too. Telling him a secret -- symbolically letting him deeper inside you -- demonstrates total trust in him and faith in your relationship. Because you're making yourself vulnerable, it's an incredible bonding experience. What works just as well: Encourage him to tell you a secret or two. And don't laugh.

Be Vicodin-Free

I know of a person who has been taking vicodin for years now. I am also pretty sure that he would not admit to his vicodin addiction just because he's in constant pain. For couple of years now, this person was diagnosed with a stomach problem and for some reason he did not undergo operation but instead he was allowed to take medication to cure whatever stomach condition he has and was given anti-pain meds to help him get through his condition. I would see him take his vicodin like candy and I guess that is a sign of his addiction.

People who stop taking Vicodin after long use may suffer from muscle and bone pain, insomnia, restlessness, diarrhea, vomiting and other flu-like symptoms. Maybe it's too late to prevent this friend's vicodin addiction but I am sure there is a way for him to finally let the drug go. The Waismann Method for rapid detox of vicodin is a world-renowned treatment program. Patients are monitored round the clock while they sleep under light anaesthesia. The first step of a drug rehabilitation program is evaluating the patient's condition in which they can identify if there are other medical or phychological issues that need to be addressed besides the drug addiction. Detoxification from vicodin is done in a closely-monitored location. Waismann method is available in a fully accredited hospital in Orange County, CA. I definitely would recommend this treatment to my friend.

Finally!

I am happy... with my lovelife that is! Yes, I have a lovelife now! Haha. Been praying a lot about my relationship with him and for some reason, when I have completely stopped asking God to give him to me, He suddenly gives him to me. Awwww... God's really good and I couldn't thank him enough for the great, great blessings he kept showering me with even if sometimes I don't deserve them. As what I have always believed in, whenever great things are given to you, you have to give something back. My work is not showing any signs of slowing down. I feel bad that I cannot be there for him all the time and it pisses me that some people aren't appreciative of what you've done and accomplished. The past year, my life's just evolved around me and my work... pleasing the client, pleasing the rather difficult boss, never complained about tons of work *i sort of do but at least i still get it done*. I want to break the monotony and change it... for the better.

I just love this person who always reminds me that there are other things in life besides work... that it's ok to be vulnerable and be helpless at times... that it's ok to be a damsel in distress even if I abhor being one... that every time I'm with him, I feel so safe... that he tamed the wild beast in me... that he is very appreciative of the little things that I do for him. Yes, I am in love. Can you tell?

Stay Away For Your Sake

I have been in emotional rollercoaster the past days and now I know why... I am PMSing. Argh! Stress at work + more stress with non-work stuff + PMS = very, very bad combo. I feel bad for all my unknowing victims. =( Sorry!

I will be on blog hiatus this weekend *except for plurk updates. i need that 80karma!* because I am going to Vegas *yeah baby!*. Will share juicy bits *if there's any* when I get back.

Happy Weekend!

Sex is very much like smoking

When I quitted smoking 6 months ago, it was a pretty tough adjustment. I just woke up one day and decided to finally stop that nicotine addiction. I threw away several packs of opened Dunhill lights *that's $10 each here!* while I finally stowed away from sight the 2 unopened reams of my nicotine goodness. I have even given away one of the reams last New year to a smoker friend. I have always been a mind over heart person that whatever I set my mind into doing, I am definitely able to make it happen. I did it... 6 months nicotine free!

Sex is very much like smoking. The more you have it, the more your body wants it and the more your brain thinks that you need it. No, I am not a sex addict! *what the heck were you thinking?!* I admit that I have pretty much adapted to the liberal way of thinking here in the US. Yes, I have slept with men but all of them *as if it's that many* I was emotionally attracted to during the time it happened. I believe that doing this with someone should always, always be based on something besides lust.

So why am I blogging about this in the middle of a very busy and hectic day? I think I just have to take this off of my head... I met someone... someone younger than me. I know, I know... I said it before that I will never date someone younger because i find them immature. Now, I am eating my own words. Tsk, tsk, tsk. I know that I am lonely and eagerly wanting to be cared for and be given attention. I also know that because of this loneliness, I can easily be swayed into giving in. Now that I am getting both attention and care from someone I barely know, I am scared of what can happen next. Hayyyy... Am I just overanalyzing this? Am I assuming too much? Premature worries?

Then The Donuts Turned Into Sushi Part 2

Was chatting with my teamlead about the email exchange with the 49yo guy in the office.

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On Matters of the Heart

In three days, I am officially single for one whole year! See!!! I can last a year without a boyfriend and it wasn't so bad except for the occasional emotional relapses, I think I did pretty good the past year. Good job! *pats her back*

Was checking out friendster and as usual, I couldn't resist checking out my daily horoscope.



Let's see... The last time I used my heart, I ended up feeling more broken than my last heartbreak. The past months I have been relying on logic when it comes to matters of the heart or even in mere dating. I guess that must be the reason why I am not actively dating nor thinking of having a serious relationship with someone. The risk-taker me have sort of stepped back from pursuing a lovelife because I am not sure if I am ready for another heartache. But then again, I have been praying for that right person to come at the right time. I hope by then I will be willing to make myself vulnerable again.